I met the now 26 year old mare who I owned from 3 months old and it was not what I was expecting...

You are going to witness something weird…

This I me working with Cherry a 26 year old horse who I had from 3 months old til 8 years old. She is the only surviving progeny of a mare we had and the only surviving horse of my entire horse owning past-life.

I was really excited to see her and get to do a case study with her but taken aback at how lifeless she was when I saw her. She barely even had the care to eat a carrot.

It was like her essence was fading and she was getting ready to pass over. It was heart breaking, Cherry gave me so much, she was an incredibly infuencial horse in my life, I retrained her from the racetrack as my 3rd horse to event up to intermediate level where she found it too much.

She then joined Sharon who has had the most fun with her over the years but Cherry got a heart murmur and 2 brain tumours and now her nose bleeding and stiffness has her retired.

I now had questions about doing nerve release upon her and a niggle that there was something she wanted from me instead.

I could feel the cloud of death not far way, it was very uncomfortable and as a rule I never do anything but nerve release during my nerve release case study sessions - but rules are made to be broken so as this was my last case study and a horse who was so many things to me - why not?

I would happily flush a case study down the toilet if it means that what I do instead is advocating for the horse and meeting it here it is instead of expecting it to be where I need it to be.

After asking her permission I went to a category I know called death wish to see if ti was there, as the niggle was telling me. It is an energetic place we enter when we are fed up with life and want out, followed by checking out which is imminent passing over.

It is possible to come out of these states if we choose to because they can often be caused by an old trauma that is niggling away and after decades we decide enough is enough.

This is the only bit of what I do that I don’t like. My job is to advocate for the horse above all.

When I sit with my head down I am in a submissive position, using what little of horsespeak that I have learned. Cherry immediately responds with a slight softening and some licking and chewing, which I imitate.

Secondly I take a moment to clear my head, put Cherry first and remove and intention or expectation I might have, promise to honour her above all - and of course apologise for me and all the other shitty humans out there. I told her I knew better now and was here to help her if she wanted me to in whatever way she wanted me to.

I checked and death wish and checking out were both present. I asked her if she was ready to leave the earthly plane and she said no. I then worked on the things she highlighted as being the driver behind the death wish and checking out. Her left hip, shoulder and her brain tumours and some other stuff thrown in I can't remember emotionally around weaning.

I honestly cannot remember what I did exactly , I think she had torqued bone within the joint and was struggling with memories of pain and suffering of both her shoulder and her head. I was so zoned in on her and was never thinking of having to write an account of it apologies for the lack of information.

The only reason I am sharing it is that the change in her is visible even on video, her whole being comes back into he room and it starts pretty much as soon as I start holding space for her.

The eye tap is a deep tendon reflex which I use to allow the changes to take place and be stored in the brain, I don't always do it physically but I always do it inside my head to them.

I decided to do the work without touching her at each spot mostly because she was so tight and tender allover there body and a times I was working within the joints so I can't

touch there anyway.

When I put my hand over her shoulder I do not actually touch it either time. I finished doing that treatment and she went straight treat the food she had not eaten int her bowl and had a huge drink, it was, indeed like life had come back into her and it is visible in her eye, face and body also.

If you watch me before I step back from her at the end I smile - I was asking her if there was anything else I could do for he

r. Yes. What ? Nerve release. OK anywhere specific? No. A full session? Yes. Ok then… It made me laugh.

I had to wait for 20 minutes while she nibbled away at her food and drank and with every minute she came more and more into the room. It really was a pleasure to see and such an honour to do for her, of all horses.